Oh Little Faith!

I love the story of Jesus walking on the water.  He was going

to meet the disciples and when they saw Him coming, they were

terrified.  They didn't recognize the man that they had spent endless

hours with because of fear!  Then  Peter says, "Lord if it's you then

tell me to come to you on the water." Oh, Peter!  Jesus tells him to come.

So Peter gets out of the boat and walks towards Jesus but when he 

sees the wind he panics and starts to sink.  He cries out "Jesus 

save me." and Jesus reaches out His hand and catches him.

Don't we all do this at times?

We tell God, "Lord, just let me do this, let me do that,

let me step into this, I am ready for that."

Then, when His perfect timing comes and we do enter into

what we have been waiting for, we often times become

fearful, we panic, we doubt.

We, as Jesus says, are of "little faith".

Today was a prime example of that for me.

My children are out on Spring Break and I love to do

things as a group with other friends and their kids but 

absolutely nothing worked out and I was extremely 

discouraged.  My kids were going stir crazy after three

days of rain and then using yesterday as a cleaning day,

it was time to get out of the house!!  

We went to our appointments this morning and when we 

were done we drove around aimlessly for about 15 minutes.

I knew if I just brought them back home that they would go

bonkers and it would be a "survive til bedtime" kind of day

and that was the last thing I wanted to do.  So we pulled in a 

parking lot and I shut the car off and I said, "We are going to 

sit here for a minute and pray and ask God to give us direction

and wisdom as to what we are to do today."  First, Kaleb prayed,

then Adia, then Kase and I was last.  When we got done 

praying Adia says, "Mom, did God tell you what we are 

suppose to do today?!"  Hahaha.  Unfortunately no, not at that 

point.  

I am just going to be completely transparent for a minute.

I love doing things with my kids but I do not like doing things

that I have no idea how its going to turn out.  I don't like doing

new things by myself or without my husband where the outcome

of what will happen and how the kids are going to behave and

respond is not obvious.  I tend to like the control and expectancy of 

what's to come...for many reasons.  But on the flip side, this is not

how I want to live my life or how I want my children to live theirs

either.

So we came home, ate lunch, grabbed jackets and left the house

once again.  

And am I so glad that we did!!!

We had an amazing afternoon together!!!  I braved taking them 

somewhere we had been before but never alone by myself! 

And we even went to a new place and tried out a new 

adventure that all four of us loved!!  

After I got home this evening, my husband sent me the sweetest

text:

"I'm glad you just went for it and took them places. Awesome

mother."

I cannot tell you what that meant to me.

Isn't that how it is with God?  He is just standing there waiting 

for us to take that step out towards Him, waiting for us to let

our strength and hope rest completely in Him.  And in doing that

comes peace to confront whatever may be lying before us. 

And at the end of it all we will get to hear, 

"Well done good and faithful servant!"

Amen!!!